I do not Understand

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Let me start these words with a question in my mind. A question that people may tend to overlook but does matter. I do not know if you are with me on this but, it sometimes crept into the most fundamental question of my inner being. Perhaps, overthinking may connote an unhealthy form of the imagination but often, it displaces a particular person from the world of an idea into the hold of reality. My question is, "Am I a toxic person?". A notion that destroys the totality of my being but rebuilds the confidence within me.

I do not understand. 

Why some people put a barrier when somebody only desires a strong connection for them? Isn't that ironic? Others are praying to have a relationship like that but, some are only taking it for granted. As I meditated on its essence, I have found out that the answer lies not on the person giving but, on the person receiving it. The real query must be to the person receiving it. It might be of the experiences or maybe on the recent form of fear about being left alone.

Maybe, the best thing that a giver must do is to just give all the attention and love to the receiver. It may somehow change the way things go but, in some instances, if the giver gets tired of giving and the receiver does not respond then, he must let go. Not drastically go but, to let it just slip until it feels no more. 

Sometimes, the best way to heal is to let go gradually.

Are you with me?

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