Inspires! It's here

  Let me start these words with a question in my mind. A question that people may tend to overlook but does matter. I do not know if you are with me on this but, it sometimes crept into the most fundamental question of my inner being. Perhaps, overthinking may connote an unhealthy form of the imagination but often, it displaces a particular person from the world of an idea into the hold of reality. My question is, "Am I a toxic person?". A notion that destroys the totality of my being but rebuilds the confidence within me. I do not understand.  Why some people put a barrier when somebody only desires a strong connection for them? Isn't that ironic? Others are praying to have a relationship like that but, some are only taking it for granted. As I meditated on its essence, I have found out that the answer lies not on the person giving but, on the person receiving it. The real query must be to the person receiving it. It might be of the experiences or maybe on the recent for...

"Sometimes, the pain has a way to not just destroy the good in you but, to expose the darkest unforgiven part of your heart." It was days or months since I had forgiven that person. It was beautiful progress with so much joy and happiness. I decided to open up my heart and understand the way things should be because it must be. I never really thought about anything to think about it again because I had already forgiven it. I did not realize after that event, things changed the way it was. I started to notice the big chasm between the person and me. I tried to think all over again about what was the problem but, nothing in my mind ever came out. Guilt and shame started to linger on me as if am convicted of something not sure of what crime.  A trifling reason for miscommunication was all the possible reasons but now, I am the one struggling with its adverse effects.  I prayed and humbled myself many times and  say the words "I forgive you" but, here I am sinking in th...