Untimely Death

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    There are times I feel very sad and depressed questioning life at its finest existence. Sometimes, I also inquire if am totally selfish or just expressing my own deep melancholy. But, in such a shame I never thought am only in the option of the two situations. I never realized that am present in both, who is trying to survive all the brokenness feeling inside. 

    It has been days since the time I knew that it was all wrong. The relationship was not toxic but only untimely. I needed to pick up the pieces of myself. I tried to do what is right and really hurting inside. I never wondered how this pain really crept into my soul. And never understand the depths it holds in me, while am attempting to figure out the things that I desire the most. The torture was bearable, but I felt unassured if am willing to continue seeing the bright side of the future and not knowing what it holds, or just be numb to never care at all.

    The affliction takes hold of it all, so far I am trying to smile amid this shallow emotional state, and it makes me wonder how depriving my sensations were about the things happening. I must continue. Nevertheless, I wondered how long I will wait and eager to welcome another turmoil because of this despicable affection towards another. Is it a millennium? Or perhaps, I am just becoming senseless to forget the past struggles I once had, without even thinking ultimately and logically the upcoming resentments and injustices that I will receive.

    I surely know that being stupid is a choice and nevertheless, brokenness is the greatest possibility. 

Comments

Elysianme said…
The title of your piece really caught my attention. Keep it up po! But I insist that soon you will gonna publish a book. Hopefully!
July 1, 2020 at 9:21 PM
Alfredo Aguilar Jr said…
Thank you very much po. Looking forward to that in God's time. God bless po.
July 1, 2020 at 9:34 PM
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